Living and studying with a bipolar depression is a constant struggle. It's a struggle to get up in the mornings and to go to bed at night. It's a struggle to concentrate because you're either all jumpy and anxious or tired and weak. It's a struggle to talk to people because in your head the thoughts are racing. It's a struggle to make plans because you never know what mood you will be in. At times you're scared to leave the house because you either cry every couple of minutes or you do something unexpected and stupid. Like screaming at someone or hurt them or yourself. With an illness like that everything is difficult. Still, I wake up every morning. And I try to continue living my life. I concentrate for as long as I can. I try to put on a smile and make-up. I try to do stuff as well as I can. I fail at times. I cry and break and bend and feel like a failure. But then I dry the tears and breathe and calm down and I try again and again and again. Because my illness is not the end of me. I will try to make it through. And someday I will be ok. #mentalhealthawareness#whatsonmymind#coffeeandbooksituation#iwillbefine#yourenotalone#breakthesilence
"And the shadow of the day, will embrace the world in grey...and the sun will set for you." Chester was a real hero. Fighting such a hard battle, seemingly alone and for such a long time. His raw talented voice and emotion were truly unique in music. Iconic and touching...his music, lyrics and voice hit you in a place where mind and heart meet. Bye Chester. Youre greatly missed. #depression#talkaboutit#yourenotalone#chesterb#ripchester#linkinpark @Linkinpark #truetalent#realmusic
Yup, video edits. I've been thinking about it for a while and I enjoyed making video edits and kind of got frustrated with making screencap edits. The edits I made aren't going to be very complicated, they'll just be very relaxing and smooth, enjoy ❤️
Personal post 📝 The hardest part of growing up with an unknown mental illness (disorder? problem? condition? I don't know what to call it) is wondering why you can't always function like other people around you. I never maintained friendships, I couldn't function in a normal school setting, I didn't fit in anywhere. I imagine that people with similar conditions look back on their lives the same way I do, and have a hard time forgiving themselves for not being better in situations or better with people. One of the biggest challenges of my adult life is forgiving myself for things I couldn't control in my past, and using the tools I have now to live a happy and fulfilling life. I think it's our duty as an adult to help, in whatever capacity we can, to be the people we desperately needed when we were younger. And part of that is sharing your success stories, even if they're invisible victories that happen only inside you. . . . . . . . . #thisisme#mentalhealthawareness#mentalhealth#anxiety#bipolardisorder#rapidcycling#awareness#together#yourenotalone#speakout#support#iloveyou
— 12x01 Hey guys, it's been a while. There's going to be some changes to the account. I'll be posting different things and as expected, not as frequently cause I kinda suck and am picky about certain things. I do have a post ready for the new theme, I guess you could call it that?